While I truly believe that being a good parent, raising an engaged and empathic child is in itself a valid contribution, it is not enough.  It is also my job to set a good example to show that it is our responsibility to get involved, our duty to contribute.

The simple, honest truth is that I feel unfulfilled and disappointed with my own lethargy.  Maybe all this “soul searching” is the second phase of my midlife crisis, I finally know who I am,  feel relatively comfortable in my skin no longer struggling to justify myself  – so maybe it is natural to start expecting more, wanting more.

I really feel the time has finally come to make a difference, now all I have to do is figure out what that will be.