We can share a moment, a beautiful moment and in that second it means the world to me, I see the future in that moment, I feel the warmth and love of that moment – I see myself reflected in your eyes and feel perfection incarnate.

I know you too have enjoyed that beautiful moment, it is nice and sweet, you are filled with warmth, perhaps in that second you too are filled with love and possibility, but it is without deeper feeling or meaning, for you it is not the promise of things to come, it is a nice memorable moment but certainly no more than that.

The realization that you do not share my perception hits me like a freight train, heart imploding leaving a vacuum in its space, sadness overwhelming me.  I plead silently for you to see me, know me, and love me. Knowing that it will do no good to ask, for what is not there – is not there.  No amount of cajolery, sweet talking or seduction will create it.. so, I must let it go, reluctantly, sadly let it go.

I have never understood how it is possible to have such a different experience of the same precious moment.

Heartbreak is no exception, the pain unbearable, inconsolable and we despair. And luckily as a grown ups we have survived heartbreak on occasion, we know it will pass, that given time it will go from sharp stabbing to dull ache and ultimately we will move on. But, in the moment even with that knowledge we despair.

There is no quick fix, no easy road to take, we must accept the pain, acknowledge it, work through it – try and remember that it does not define who we are as human beings, try and not let it taint every aspect of our lives.

I know this too shall pass – but really wish I could find that silver lining.