8 Mar 10
Be first!
Kissing frogs and other good stuff
My mouth is starting to get a nasty sort of toxic taste, what with all the frog kissing I’ve been doing of late, what never ceases to amaze me is that so far and without fail under every shining princes armor lies the warty, smelly and somewhat rancid frog.
Certainly, in my lifetime I have kissed more than my share of frogs and so far, only two of them can be said to be princes (too bad neither worked out, I love and treasure them both), it’s not like I lack experience and am incapable of recognizing a prince.
Actually, now that I think about it, I’d just as soon drop the whole “how much experience” have I got, let us just put it this way, a twelve year marriage is like pushing a giant reset button, all previous (shall we call it) experience is null and void. However, the resetting aside, the scent of malodorous ripe frogs remains embedded in my nostrils from my, oh so innocent past (she says with angelic doe eyes). I recognize the stench of them almost immediately though sadly always after the actual kissing – yuck – *spit* etc.
I wonder what it is that apparently inspires burning desire but no “real” interest. Don’t get me wrong, I certainly like to inspire desire, but it would be nice to have that in addition to interest rather than instead of. If I were to guess I would say it is because I can’t and wont do that demure, game-playing crap. The thought of game-playing leads to my immediate knee-jerk reaction of “Geez grow the fuck up, we are no longer in high school (thank God ) you would think a man could handle a woman who knows her own mind” .. Apparently we are in high school and the nightmare has begun again.
A great friend of mine whom I love dearly, said to me, “Hey, maybe you should just relax for a while”, you know what I agree, I think it is time to take a much needed break, focus on that “looking at myself with the eyes of compassion” thang, enjoy my son, friends, family and not the least my exciting and demanding job.
The frogs will just have to kiss themselves for a while
